End of my first academic years

This year I enter University, this experiences was tiring, because It is a complete new experience that change who I was for good and for bad. I become a mad, negative, controller, responsible, punctual, lonely person, and for that I lost a lot of relation like friends. I have to meet me again, I miss that part of me that was positive, carefree, cheerful, but I known in the deep of my soul that she is gone and she never come back. I think that the university make me see the world, my life and my priorities in a different perspective. Now is very hard for me remove this ideas and enjoy the moment like Christmas or new year, I don´t see the point to celebrate it, and that provoke that I discuss with my family. I don´t know that is for what I learn or If I change a lot.
Now my only priority is finish the semester I can relax , because This year the difficult not be  academic, was more difficult the part related with the emotional and try to beat the frustration for not be the best or have the marks that I think that i should have.
But I hope that the next year was better.